Wednesday, August 13, 2008

Saving the Best for Last!

I was looking in my old portfolios from when I had my design business for some photos of cantera table bases to show someone today. I quietly sat and looked at all the "work" I did for twenty years (and loved it) and it caused me to pause and think about the "seasons" of my life so far.

The first, of course as a child is hard to even bring into context now with the life I'm living.
The second was as a wife and mother - I LOVED that season - is the mother part over yet? (I think so.)........And during the second phase, the years of working - at first for others, but the last twenty years for myself - well that's not quite true - for my clients is more like it. I loved the last twenty years. The accolades, the creativity and, of course the money.

BUT I must say, and I AM saying, "THIS IS THE BEST!" It is still hard for me to believe that most days I can do as I please. The fact that I never have to work again is hard for me to grasp. The freedom to read, write, watch and listen to what's around me and to travel are the gifts of this last season of my life. And to be perfectly honest, I've never been able before to put myself first - it is a STRANGE sensation. Sometimes I question it. But I've decided that as long as I don't become self-centered and/or narcissistic, I'm ok. Is that true?

Well if the last season continues like this and I'm healthy and able to travel, I'll be a "happy camper". That's my thought for today!

2 comments:

American Mommy in Mexico said...

very nice posting

Steve Cotton said...

Babs -- As you know, I am not the person to ask on this topic. This is one topic I continue to grapple with. But I am going to enjoy doing it.