Tuesday, May 19, 2020
An Endurance Test
It's a photo that I found recently attached to something else! It is one of the few photos of my two daughters and I together! It was taken in the 80's at Applebee's where Julie worked on the weekends while going to college in Nacogdoches at Stephen F. Austin. Yes, she would drive all the way home because the tips were good, food at home was good, and she got to see her friends. Jennifer lived in Houston at the time and we tried to get together as often as possible. Heaven only knows where John was at that time!
I want to have this photo restored, enlarged and framed. It reminds me of good times! You see, today is the 16th anniversary of Jennifer's passing. Not a day goes by that something or someone reminds me of a memory that makes me smile or chokes me up. Rainbows, butterflies are very significant for all of us in the family.
Going through the Covid 19 thing reminds me of the five and a half years that my whole family lived "one day at a time". Both to care for Jennifer but also to take care of Christopher her son who is now 21! He was born at seven months after the diagnosis and Jen starting chemo the next day. It was a time that things could change minute by minute not only just day by day.
Jennifer's passing was a benchmark for me. Nothing could ever be worse. Therefore, I wish none of us were going through the staying home, worrying about getting sick or the financial aspect of this virus, but seriously, things could be much worse.
Life IS an endurance test. The good and the bad. Luckily the Universe doesn't let us foresee the future or, in some cases, we would give up. I choose to enjoy the day and let tomorrow take care
of itself. Pollyanna, no. Just my method of coping.
As I sit and write this, I can look out the window at the gazillions of hummingbirds and butterflies in the flamboyant tree and be grateful for that beauty.
Hopefully you too can find something to be grateful for as well. Think of ya'll often!